An upcomming CHALLENGE

I am starting to feel nervous, very nervous. I am a feminist sociologist. When I think about issues, or when I write essays (no matter what class) I do so from a feminist position. I can't help it, I feel like it is an innate part of me. Most of the time I feel proud of this, I am the only one in my honours year in sociology that does this. Most of the time, I feel like if I don't do this I am letting myself, and womankind down (as wanky as that sounds). I also feel like I would be letting my niece down, even though she wouldn't care less it is really important to me to be a good, strong role model for her. The problem is, in a couple of weeks time I will have to do two presentations in front of my (almost entirely male) class, by myself. I have already opted to do my social theory presentation on feminism and I am thinking of doing my qualitative data analysis presentation on what a feminist data analysis would look like. Having social anxiety makes this difficult enough, particularly seeing as I have found it difficult even going to class at times. But the fact I will be standing up (or sitting, either way standing up metaphorically) in front of everyone and put forward my feminist perspective and opinion. Even thinking about it now I can feel the lump in my throat and the churning sea in my tummy. I just don't know how I am going to so this! But shit it will be interesting to see how I do and shit it'll be a challenge!